It's psychologically easier for me to hold myself completely responsible for my choices than to look at the roles played by others in making those choices seem so compelling. Sometimes a pro-life type person will come across as, "oh you poor dear, you were horribly exploited and victimized."
No! I want to shout. It was I alone, an independent, autonomous, smart young woman!
Part of my recovery has come by going through agonizing stages of realizing that other people did hurt and, I guess, victimize me. I had to go through a lot of anger at others. I don't like that. When you're angry at yourself, at least you're angry at someone who can or will do something in response to all that anger. There's more of a helpless feeling when you recognize that someone else hurt you, didn't have your best interest at heart, or stood by passively, hoping you'd make that appointment. (Yeah! She's looking through the yellow pages! Yeah, she's dialing!)
I try to avoid helplessness at all costs, since bad things have happened when I've been helpless.
This is by way of a long introduction to a short blog, which is about the abortion-breast cancer link. This is an area which, when I read about it, brings back that old feeling of helplessness and victimization. There's pretty compelling evidence that there IS a breast cancer-abortion link and that the science showing that has been around a long time.
But that information was withheld from me and from all the young women who are faced with this decision yesterday, today and tomorrow.
Here's an article from today's edition of "The Age", an Australian newspaper.
It is by Dr Angela Lanfranch, a breast cancer surgeon, a fellow of the American College of Surgeons and clinical assistant professor of surgery at the Robert Wood Johnson Medical School in New Jersey.
She writes in part:
"As Dr Janet Daling, who identifies herself as being pro-choice, says: 'If politics gets involved in science, it will really hold back the progress we make. I have three sisters with breast cancer, and I resent people messing with the scientific data to further their own agenda, be they pro-choice or pro-life. I would have loved to have found no association between breast cancer and abortion, but our research is rock solid, and our data is accurate. It's not a matter of believing. It's a matter of what is.' "