Sent to me via email last night:
I am sorry to write this, but I need to get it off my chest. My girlfriend had an abortion 2 weeks ago. It is apperent to me she had the abortion because I did not make enough money to keep her happy. Never in my whole life have I felt like such a failure. It is hareder than I could have imagined to deal with this. Knowing that I am the cause of my childs death, long before it was even born. I can not deal with it anymore, long into the nights I have had thoughts of suicide, thinking it would be the best for me....I don't know what to do. I feel so lost inside myself, all I feel is greif and sorrow. I dont want to be me anymore, I want to be someone, or something else.