Choosing an abortion in advance:
In December, I flew back to Bermuda, and as always in this relationship, I found myself wrestling with something a little more profound, and a little more risky. Wayne had briefly mentioned the possibility of us having a sexual relationship. He felt that at this stage, it was the most logical step forward. I at first said no because of my belief in God, and no sex before marriage, and the fact that I was against abortion. We had many debates about such topics, every argument he ended up winning. I finally told him that I would think about it, and that if we did, and I got pregnant, then I would have an abortion. I wasn’t all that comfortable with the abortion idea, but as I thought about it, I decided that it was more preferable than struggling to raise a child with no life skills at all. and I wouldn’t have been ready for that kind of responsibility, even though I was nineteen at the time.